I didn’t realize it was the first Wednesday in November and I almost missed my chance to post on IWSG day (check out the other posts here). But, thankfully, I remembered in time so that I can participate, since I have a doozy of an issue to report this month.
I’ve been writing full time (in addition to a full-time job) for over five years, have published three books since last year, and was scheduled to publish my fourth book in December. I am a planner. I am driven and all sorts of fired up to get my writing career off the ground. I have dreams and dedication and can really see the pieces moving on the grand chess board of life. Yup, all that. But what I also have are some health issues that are seriously crashing through my dreams, goals, plans, and drive. I am struggling with the reality that I really should postpone my upcoming book release (but I seriously love this book and want to get it out into the world) and slow down my over-working tendencies that don’t allow for things like exhaustion and illness. This decision is truly crushing me the same way the health issues are. I hate running up against limitations. I want to be fearless and brave, steady and unrelenting. I want to be the hero of my epic publishing tale. And in my mind, heroes aren’t bound by stupid human weakness.