Wednesday, November 6, 2013

When Reality Crashes Through Imagination - An IWSG Post

I didn’t realize it was the first Wednesday in November and I almost missed my chance to post on IWSG day (check out the other posts here).  But, thankfully, I remembered in time so that I can participate, since I have a doozy of an issue to report this month.  

I’ve been writing full time (in addition to a full-time job) for over five years, have published three books since last year, and was scheduled to publish my fourth book in December.  I am a planner.  I am driven and all sorts of fired up to get my writing career off the ground.  I have dreams and dedication and can really see the pieces moving on the grand chess board of life.  Yup, all that.  But what I also have are some health issues that are seriously crashing through my dreams, goals, plans, and drive.  I am struggling with the reality that I really should postpone my upcoming book release (but I seriously love this book and want to get it out into the world) and slow down my over-working tendencies that don’t allow for things like exhaustion and illness.  This decision is truly crushing me the same way the health issues are.  I hate running up against limitations.  I want to be fearless and brave, steady and unrelenting.  I want to be the hero of my epic publishing tale.  And in my mind, heroes aren’t bound by stupid human weakness.

Only they are.  I am.  We all are.

All of us writers are living in two worlds, one with the dragons and the other with... well, the dragons.  Only in real life, the dragons include illness (self and others), loss, jobs, bills, financial challenges, and other miscellaneous responsibilities that are way less cool than the other sparkly, fire-breathing dragons.

And just like in fiction, life is hard sometimes and sometimes, we do hit the boundaries that make us feel small.  Health issues do that very, very quickly.

I’m not at all resolved about postponing my book release, but I really think I am going to have to get resolved very soon.  But the one thing I am certain of is that this challenge of mine is shared by all of the other writers living in the real world and trying to tackle our seemingly impossible dreams.

We are all in this together, especially on IWSG day.