I’ve even created a timeline of when I want to release my books through 2016. I push to hopefully develop a readership that will follow me from book to book, series to series. I have a plan and a vision. I also have overmining as a chief worry.
And I have my catch 22. To be a happy person, I must write, but what happens when writing drains me? How does balance exist for a person who cringes at the word moderation? I admit to a somewhat Puritanical work ethic. How do I let go of something so ingrained in the fabric of my person?
It is all about filling the well—that I know. But everything gets more complicated after that, when the thing that most completes me depletes me. And horror of horrors is the idea of taking time off when I have a publishing map driving me forward.
I know from reading other IWSG posts that many writers have procrastination worries with their writing. I had to smile when I realized that last IWSG post day, I had procrastination envy. This isn't to say that my focus is always rock solid (certainly not... I can get lost researching the history of kilts or fall into the parallel universe of online puppy pictures), but I will say that if I ever had a boss at a job who pushed me the way I push myself, I'd run for the hills and seek life elsewhere.
I’d love your thoughts on this because I get tight in the chest even considering backing away from the greatest part of my life.
To read other IWSG posts, check out the master list here.